What To Do

December 21, 2009 Sasha Jones
Tags: Breaking Up, Love Lost, Relationships, Second Guessing

I can’t talk to him. I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of hoping. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of questioning. I’m tired of trying to reach out and being met w/ defense. I’m not wrong in feeling like something just isn’t right. Why is it that it has been 7 1/2 months that we’ve known ea other & I’ve yet 2 even be invited over your place to hang out w/ you? To watch movies or something? Why is it that you won’t give me a straight answer when I ask you to tell me what I mean to you? Why is it that we haven’t spent an entire day together yet? And why is it that when I try & bring this to your attention I’m met with attitude? I don’t deserve this shit and I won’t continue to take it! I’m too good of a Woman to settle for your mediocrity. There are plenty of guys who would LOVE to have my time and here I am wasting my energy on YOU! To get what in return? WHAT? And to think you’re the one I want to make love to for the 1st time! The one I “love”! The one who I’ve given so much of myself to! I’m embarrassed to even call you my “Man”. I hate myself for allowing you to get this close to me. And you can’t simply just tell me what I mean to you? Obviously I mean nothing, and that’s exactly how I’m gonna take it! I’m done! If you can’t respect my heart then I can’t respect you!