So It Ends…
December 22, 2009
Sasha Jones
Tags: Breaking Up, Relationships
I have to laugh… I just have to. It’ll help hold back petty tears. All that plagues me right now is thoughts. I can still hear your voice telling me how much you care, how badly you wanted me, all the promises & I’m sorry’s. I can still see your face how you used to look at me, and how you used to kiss me. Was this all a lie? I can’t honestly believe any of this by the way you represented yourself yesterday. Still boggles me that you weren’t able to give me a simple straight answer to ANY of my direct questions that were important to me. I don’t know how long it will take for me to forgive you, and I don’t know how long it will take to stop missing you, but as God is my witness I will try my BEST to forget you. Then…what if you prove to me how much of a “Man” you claim to be? What if you clean up your act? Then what? How am I going to react? So far, the Man I’ve come to see is petty, self-serving, and hasn’t learned how to soften or open his heart. And at this exact moment, I’m still trying to convince myself there’s still a glimmer of hope. Why am I so damn optimistic! This is how I get hurt. I allow people to let me down. I know all of this went down only yesterday, and it’s only the beginning of today…but I’m not sure exactly what the rest of the week or next week holds. All I can do is prepare for the worst & hope for the best. I just hope today goes smoothly & I don’t dwell on this too much. Not expecting any contact from him today, so we’ll see. Only time will tell… And I know I said I wouldn’t give up & I would fight for him, but I’d be damned to fight for someone who can’t tell me what I mean to them. Slap dead in my face. Why should I fight for that? Exactly, I won’t!
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An Old Friend |
December 22, 2009 at 12:09 PM
No Man is worth your tears, if one ever is worthy you’ll never know because he wont make you shead a tear. That saying is cliche but makes more sense than alot of things nowadays. When I really knew you, You were one of the nicest people I’d ever meant and Im sure you havent changed. I can only wish you the best and say through whatever you face dont let it change you keep your essence stay optimistic and beautiful. Time heals all wounds and laughters the best medicine. Always remember the people we may want right now we probably wont need in the future
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Sasha Jones |
December 22, 2009 at 4:57 PM
Really positive and inspiring words. I appreciate them very much. Thank You.