Day 2

Hello world! I must say that it has been a pretty good day. Simply because I got an apology. FINALLY. And, on top of that, I am in the mood to go out tonight. Now, things aren’t magically copasetic  again, I still have much I need to say to him, BUT I want to wait until he & I are face to face to elaborate more on the changes and compromise that are gonna have to be made to have a happy union. I’ve also decided to take another guy up on his offer for a movie date. No harm in that and it’ll help me potentially “keep my options open” just in case. I was so elated to see a text from him this morning and then to get a phone call later on. I don’t think he understands how much just little gestures like that mean to me. I can’t talk much because I have to start getting ready for my evening plans, but I’m happy to say that I still have HOPE for him and I won’t completely give up just yet. So, let’s tally up today’s results:

Did he call: Yes

Cried: 0 times

Spoke of him: maybe twice

Thought of him: all damn day

Overall feeling: happier within myself, calm, relaxed and Hopeful!

Grade: B+

So until tomorrow dolls, Muah!

Add a comment December 18, 2009

Day 1

So to calm my nerves and nurse this state of sadness that has consumed me, I am going to write daily to pick myself back up and overcome this like I did 2 years back w/ a summer fling. It really helped me back then and I know it should help me now. And the only person I can talk endlessly about this with is me, lol. So here it goes….. Day Uno:

Although the day isn’t technically over yet, I’ll still consider it unsuccessful. I didn’t hear from him today, and that’s fine. I’ll live. I have been crying on & off like a fool periodically throughout the day. Nothing too dramatic, just a moment of getting choked up, and then shaking it off. I’ve been talking with my close friends and of course the advice is all over the board. One says it’ll get better, be patient. One says I should cut my losses and move on. And 2 others say he needs to get his shit together. I agree with all 4 because they always have my best interest at heart..but I want to decide for myself in the end and I will give this time and continue to try and work things out with him. I’m feeling better right now at the moment. No tears, mind is free. Feeling a bit relaxed. I hope tomorrow can run a bit smoother than today did. So let’s tally up today’s  results:

Did he call: No

Cried: 5 times

Spoke of him: 3 1/2 times

Thought of him: All damn day

Overall feeling: Up & Down mood… mostly sad

Grade: D+

Let’s just hope Day 2 is better

Add a comment December 17, 2009